What is my Life Worth?

“So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Math 10:30

Is it the ‘nature of things’? Or it is ‘in my nature’?

Never satisfied with what I have, I love the dark adventure
No! I don’t like the quiet-self, strengthens my stature
Somehow I settle ‘for-less’, I go after the vulture
Who has No mercy! No mercy! No mercy!
To usher me the decency …
Of a worthy life!

Hence, what is my real value? How much do I really worth?
Watered down philosophy,
Hypocrisy can lead to sloth
Fitting in the mold,
Of a 'relationship' that WAS sold,
Of a soul that WAS sold,
To nothingness!
To an empty conformity
Claps of dead crowd, laughter of lifeless corpse!

What is my real worth, if I’m dragging yesterday?
How much is my stride, when tomorrow is of dismay?
Unless I learn, until I discern
Unless I seek wisdom, with a lantern!
Unless “I” choose to mold “me”, according to ‘my essence ’,
According to ‘my clay’!
Unless my responses are clear, until I practice to say ‘nay’
… to the mere noise of the ‘norm’, deafening bang of vain
… to the clatter of my brain
Till I learn to say,
Nay!

Till I claim, my life to ‘me’
How high is my value, at what peak, at what degree?

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Life is Paradoxical - indeed!

I know you have a deep quest for life
Sincerity, spares your soul from strife
The torn muscles, bound by a worn-out ligament
Until the right twist
Until the right moment
For your soul to break free from its joint
Until a scream wakes your core
From being dormant
Until that moment
Stay with patient!

And remember,
Some things don't make sense
They are paradoxical
Some matters stay tense,
Some Dwell in sabbatical
Some thoughts remain dense
Until the matters are whimsical

Then, everything becomes "the way"
Or "the things" that seemed to matter
Will fade away....

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For what it is worth…!



I should tell that you move me
At times you question
My reason to be
Who am I in this rendition,
Snippet of my life terms
Not just the times …
But shape and forms

And I like you for that!


True!
I can call you!
A reliable friend
Whether I’m or I’m not by your side
You don’t shatter
You won’t slide
From the ‘trust worthiness’ circle
From the safe atmosphere sphere
My essence
Your essence wasn’t crafted in the bubble
A random emotional high
Our ‘friend-ship’ won’t crumble
It won’t drop us from the sky!

And I like you for that!


I ask for!
An unlimited, unbounded river of love
Else to free you like a dove
In this mystifying existence
Understandably
You attempt
To fit – my element – with your element
To feel my sediment
The very complex component
The make of my very core
True!
You tried and try to mean more
To take off the societal norm
You tried and try
To withstand the rain and the storm
Of my very demand
Calling “you” to loose “your” guard!
And you tried

And I like you for that

For what it is worth I wanted to whisper it!
I wanted to tell you, you and you!